Monday, September 30, 2002

yes! malapit ng matapos ang monday!

lunes nga naman oh, .. masuklap 4ever.. was almost late again.. logged in at 8:02 am (yes!).. couldn't blame anyone 'cause it was just me whom my father dropped off at the shuttle terminal.. (ate ging is in malaysia again, ate chary didn't go to work).. was even early, we left at 6:25 AM.. but the freaking monday traffic was heavy again.. as soon as i arrived at the office, played my p3 of "Manic Monday" and prayed that Ma'am Sansu would be absent today.. (the one who needed the foxpro programmer)..syempre, hindi ako ganon kalakas keh God kaya hindi natupad ang aking panalangin lol! But still, God is good (waaah TY tlga) because after going to the client at Makati (me and Ma'am Sansu), she discovered that there really wasn't any error in the program.. still couldn't explain how it computed that value but after re-entering the transaction, it was now error-free and running smoothly... all i did was watch Ma'am Sansu while she checked the database (in short, chaperone hehe), TG tlga! but she said to the client that if there would be any future problems, i would be the one to handle them which is fine by me 'cause MATAGAL PUH YUN SANA..

can now continue doing my gallery for the site.. yeHey!

TG! i love Mondays BWAHAHAH. ndi rin.


Sunday, September 29, 2002

...went to Sta.Lucia where they have loads of pirated software stuff... i couldn't believe i actually found one.. so the installer was not a problem anymore,... next thing i needed was a book, so i met harbie in Katipunan and she lent me hers (am eternally grateful beng,.. thanks!).. she had to do this errand so i went with her.. we then went to galleria where we met some chatters (some new ones also.. yEy!) having their EB..

anywayz, now my remaining problem is to learn all this stuff again for me to become a LITTLE credible on my foxpro programming skills.. i've started reading already... some stuff are like "aahh onga pala" but others are like.. "meron ba talagang ganito".. and i still haven't figured out how to view the files she gave to me.. they have a different extension name so i can't figure out if i have the right files or the right installed version..

*heart goes *thud, thud*

will attempt to figure out all this stuff again.. gtg wish me luck

Saturday, September 28, 2002

haaaaayyyyyy ang laki LAKI laki ng problema ko!

i'm so patay.

ang tanong saken ng bisor ko ay.. "Nag foxpro ka na ba?"
syempre sinabi ko ang totoo. "Opo.. pero foxpro for dos"
sabi nya. "Ayun, kaw tumingin ng problema dun sa program na yun"
Asa isip ko. "Watda. PAK."

waaaaaHAHAHAHA.. kahapon pinatingin saken yung program. sinabi ko naman.. "Umm. Ma'am nung third year pa ako last nagfoxpro"
Si Ma'am, no reaction. *fatay*. buti na lang sya ang nasa tapat ng keyboard. Sya yung nagtatayp type dun ng mga commands habang pinapakita nya saken yung problema. Ako, nakatunganga lang dhel ni pano palabasin ang source code ay wala na akong matandaan kung pano gawin yun. Isang buong taon ako halos nag foxpro.. pero may gosh may golly wow.. hindi ko na talaga sya ma-dig at windows programmer na ako.. pero syempre wala akong magawa... kaya kunwari mega-titig ako sa monitor at mega-isip kung BAKIT NGA buh (why-oh-why) ganon nga ang error nung program.

ngayon, ang sakit ng dibdib ko pag-gising ko..(pero baka rin dahil nagtimezone kami kagabi napagod ako kakapara-para dancer LOL) dahil ganito ako pag kinakabahan. ano buh yan meh bumabagabag na naman sa aking isipan.. ANG SAYA KAYA PAG BORING ANG BUHAY. ano buh toh.. masama puh nito ISASAMA daw ako sa client sa lunes para dun iresolba yung problema ng program. pwede buh akong wak na lang pumasok? baka pwedeng pa-hospital na lang ako.. wala bang IBANG PWEDE ANO BUUHHHHHH.. kahapon puh ako (hanggang ngayon) text ng text sa kung sino sino para lang magtanong kung meh installer sila ng foxpro for dos. syempre yung mga kabatch ko WALA na nun kasi sinaunang language puh yun. pag-asa ko na lng yung lower batch na ISM. nag txt ako ng 3 tao na awa ng diyos eh asa akin puh mga numero nila. meh sumagot na 2. yung isa wala sya. yung pangalawa wala rin sya pero sinabi nya sa kabarkada nya na ISM rin at i-email daw sakin yung installer mamayang GABI PUH. kaya ngayon.. naghahanap ako sa internet baka meh nag upload nun (syempre puro patch ek ek lng) para matingnan ko na yung source code. sana mabuksan ko. sana MAKITA KO na yung problema. eh pano ko makikita problema kung WALA AKONG ALAM SA SYNTAX. naalala ko may humiram nga pala ng libro ko kaya wala dito sa bahay. KIkitain ko si HARBIE MY BERI BERI HELPFUL prend sa katipunan para hiramin ang ancient foxpro for dos book. hay may gosh talaga.. di tuloy mapakali ang puso ko tibok ng tibok. 12:16 PM na.. pagnakita ko source code malamang walang tulugan na naman toh. ANO BUUUHHHHHH okay na sana talaga e. biglang pagdebugin daw ako ng FOXPRO FOR DOS. *hagulgol*

'tong linggo na toh talagang kakakaba e.. kasi mga opismeyts ko ako buh naman ang tinuro na magprogram nung development tool. KINABAHAN na naman ako baka hindi ko magawa. pero yun, nagawa ko naman.. kaya masaya na nga ako kahapon e kasi natapos ko sya sa isang araw lang. pero ano buhhh talagang ayaw ng tadhana na maging MASAYA KA NG matagal. unfair siguro para sa iba. eh? eh.. ewan...

tama na nga pagmumokmok at maghahanap na ako.

OIIIIIII PAK DAT SHEET!

Wednesday, September 25, 2002

yessssss! my sister brought her cd mp3s she burned from the office.. will have new p3s tomorrow! yahoo! good night all!
System Time: 10:45 AM
...i need new p3s!.. presently listening (for the nth time) Under the Bridge by RHCP.. katamad gumawa ng documentation.. as innnnn.. still have 4 reports to document...hmmmmm
System Time: 11:15 AM
..still not continuing the documentation.. (A-Y-O-K-O LOL!).. as if i've got a choice.. i'll do it later...
..eboy just texted me.. she said she was asked to do a program and the input was "FACMASTER".. LOL!!! they couldn't say it out loud and had to pronounce it as F-A-C master..
System Time: 2:46 PM
....waaahhh kakatulog na naman ako...anoo buuhhhhh.. nag sisleep-copy-pasting ako.. wahaha!
System Time: 4:42 PM
... semi-pinagalitan kami ng supervisor namin.. hehehe..we were asked to device a plan on how to make some tasks easier to do.. guess we didn't completely understand her instructions and we jumped the gun and got lost in the details that we weren't able to present anything...we were supposed to present something today.. kakahiya tuloy... anyways, we'll just hafta charge this to 'experience' and hope that we'll learn from our mistake.. (blah blah blah).. System Time: 6:09 PM
gtg bye!!

Tuesday, September 24, 2002

System Time: 4:57 PM
...i've been having a pretty busy sched here at the office, main reason why i haven't been blogging that much.. actually, i've still got loads of stuff to do but the flourescent light is flickering (pak) and i'm feeling the beginnings of a huge headache...
... just realized i haven't received a single text message for this day.. waaah la ng nagmamahal saken LOL!.. well, i guess it was inevitable..they finally realized i wasn't going to reply and they got tired of wasting their money on me... *_* lol! malala na ko... hehe
...been on a spending spree this past couple of days.. (as if i've got lots of money to spare)..bought pirated dvds, my first book for my supposed-fairy tale collection (supposed - 'cause i still only have one book, couldn't call it a collection yet), been feasting on japanese food (nahawa ko si opismate Koji; meh kasama na akong kumakain ng mga sashimi hehe) and basically buying
all sorts of candies and chocolates for office-baon.. presently, i only have 13.50 php (all in coins) in my wallet.. not enough to get home.. still have my mrt card though, so i'll be able to reach cubao, but from there,.. i'd hafta remember to withdraw some money.. hehe...(then buy more chocolate ^_^)...
...still only 5:35 pm.. flourescent lamp's still flickering.. demmit..
...had a dream last night.. was about momi.. he signed my gb again and specifically set a date for us to meet (in my dream).. i guess i've been thinking much about him lately..waaaahh misyumomi! no matter how hard i try to move on it always comes back to you.. (parang john mayer-back to you.. hehe..bagong theme song?).. konting paramdam lang tuwa na ang gagah.. /me wapaks sarili.. heeeeeeeeellooooo? get on with your life!!! pak lol!
..anyways, i have been smoke-free for 3 days... i've decided to quit (for real)... my officemates have stopped offering me a stick during break time but they've started a bet as to how long i can go on without smoking.. isa lang masasabi ko.. KAYA KO TOH! (3 pala yun..)
.....oiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii 6:05 nuh BWAHAHAHAH
babay!

Monday, September 23, 2002

...has been a pretty good day considering that it's a Monday.. (hehe)

ang saya! bought my first book for my fairy-tale collection.. (balik childhood?) .. Walt Disney's Classic Storybook.. keh hirap pumili! abuh keh dami dami palang mga fairytale books ngayon.. took me almost an hour to decide.. even saw a "Mga Kwento ni Lola Basyang" .. wanted to buy that one but the illustrations weren't that nice.. i could have bought two books but i spent my money on pirated dvds.. (bought 6 walt disney stuff... stop piracy! *ubo ubo*)..

hay tulog nuh ko.. pinagalitan puh ako nung dumating ako sa bahay.. "BAkit ngayon ka lang!" uh-oh

nite all!

Friday, September 20, 2002

TG my headache has subsided.

too tired to write anything.. nite all! tgif!

Thursday, September 19, 2002

System Time: 8:27 AM
mawnin! momi signed my gb yesterday! (or was it Sunday.. am not sure.. anywayz, i read it just yesterday) .. he's in manila 'cause he's reviewing for his customs board exam pala.. well..good luck momi! kayang kaya mo yan..! *two thumbs up sign*

System Time: 3:09 PM
woahh.. didn't realize that when we divided the reports among ourselves that some reports are actually folders which contain MORE reports.. so Froi in fact has 24 reports instead of just 11.. since i'm sort of finished with mine, i'm now doing the additional reports.. hmm B r B

System Time: 4:27 PM
... i'm now on my third report..and i've lost the strength of spirit to go on.. LOL! keh drama anu? tinatamad lang e kung anu² puh sinasabi! hehe..babasa ulit muna ako ng LOTR..

System Time: 5:45 PM
... semi-finished the third report after getting my groove back.. yey friday tomorrow! yey i've got loads of stuff to do tomorrow! yey lapit na uwian! bye!

Wednesday, September 18, 2002

System Time: 10:46 AM
.. mawnin! .. i love Wednesdays.. because the rest of the week seem to go faster... wasn't late today, mainly because our father directly transported me and my sister to my office (my sister took the MRT from there, she works in Makati)..usually, our dad just drops us on the shuttle terminal but when we got there, there was a long line again for the shuttle services and i could already tell that i was going to be late... my dad hadn't eaten breakfast yet so it was sort of a sacrifice for him.. (what parents will do for their kids.. awwww LOL!).. my dad asked us to give him money for gasoline, though hehehe.. am still very grateful.. ^_^
... before i get over-emotional..better finish these crystal reports first.... hmmm

System Time: 11:48 AM
..just waiting for lunch time.. already finished 10 out of 11 crystal reports.. the last report's requirements are highly ambiguous so Sir Herbert said to skip it first..
..presently listening to Garbage - I think I'm paranoid.. hay, i need to copy new p3s.. i'm getting tired of listening to the same stuff.. eiii it's 12 pm.. just going to lay my head on the desk for a few minutes..

System Time: 1:19 PM
.. and here comes the.. 'twilight hourrrrrr' ..haf--ta .. stayyyy a---wakeeeee @_@

System Time: 2:34 PM
..presently listening to PJ Harvey-Down by the Water...couldn't fight the twilight hour.. still fell asleep.. waaaH.. maybe something's wrong with me... hehe..
... i just remembered what my sister told me yesterday.. she said that i cry in my sleep.. she's been using the PC in my room and i usually fall asleep before she leaves the room.. she asked me if i knew i do that.. (of course i didn't).. but there have been times when i wake up with tears in my cheeks..i knew i had a dream but couldn't recall what it was all about.. she said i've been crying in my sleep for two consecutive days now... hmm.. watdapak!?? i said to her.. "i guess i'm one depressed person".. she said.. "di noh.. it was a irritated-sort-of-cry" LOL!!! i said: "oh. i guess i'm just a brat" hehehe.. my sister said i sounded like i was so frustrated and annoyed at someone that i was crying.. she said i was even gesturing my arms.. LOL! good thing i don't see myself doing that.. it might scare the shit out of me.. well, it isn't the first time someone told me that i sleep-talk.. my other sister (ate Ging) told me i even looked from the top bunk down to her (the time when we still used a double-deck bed) and asked her some inane question.. scary noh? buti 'di ako nahulog HEHE..

System Time: 5:37 PM
.. brrr *shivers*..freaking aircon is blowing straight at me.. my lipbalm's all used up and my lips are chapped.. huhuhu..and is this rheumatism i'm feeling in my joints? LOL!.. my back also aches.. slouching in front of the monitor the whole day.. what a nice career i have chosen, eh?.. YES! they're talking about the aircon... Koji has his jacket in front of him like a blanket.. i'm wearing the hood of my jacket for crying out loud.. (don't want my brains to freeze and get numb lol).. maybe i should wear gloves and ear muffs.. perhaps they'll get the hint?..
... already saw the HP Trivia Game for Chamber of Secrets at Pocket Collector.. we already have the first one so hopefully my sisters and I will again share in buying this one.. we still suck at HP Trivia but it's fun collecting HP stuff.. hmmm.. still 10 minutes before 6 pm.. wait.. (puts "buy lipbalm" on memory check list) ...hope i won't forget..

/me strets strets

...will spend next 7 minutes in the CR.. hehe.. gtg bye!

Tuesday, September 17, 2002

System Time: 8:38 AM
..demmit.. two lates in a row.. :( swiped in at 8:12 AM.. *blames heavy traffic* bwishit
..ate's isp's password expired yesterday.. couldn't change it (might affect their whole company lol) so i used a prepaid connection.. pak bagal.. had to reconnect everytime.. after many attempts, was finally able to upload the pages i created yesterday...i was so lagged at IRC, i couldn't make chika to ate cha huhuhu (waaah wento ka ate cha!)..anywayz.. good thing he called,..lessened my grumpiness that evening..

System Time: 9:53 AM
..waahh it looks like they don't have any plans on giving us a new module today.. can't believe it.. i'm so freakinggg sleypiiiiii.. woah.. tinawag si Chipper ni Ma'am Malou.. sanaaaa bagong moduleeee.. i'm presently listening to Linkin Park.. i like LP.. although they became popular.. it doesn't bother me.. still the same music, same band.. only more popular..

System Time: 4:56 PM
... turns out it was a new module.. well, more specifically they're crystal reports that we have to make.. total of 11 reports for each of us.. they're actual reports that will be used by the client..so hopefully, our project-incentive-meter will start today.. i haven't finished it yet.. just wanted to share the good news (hehe)..actually, i still fell asleep (lol) in the middle of designing one report 'cause it's just a matter of drag and dropping data fields.. i decided to stop pretending ('cause i was still clicking my mouse all over the report while my eyes were half-closed) and just laid my head on the desk to sleep.. when i woke up (after about 15 minutes), i almost laughed out loud because the fields on my report didn't make any sense.. (is there such a thing as sleep-drag-dropping?) anywayz.. i'm wide awake now.. and enjoying my mundane job hehe..

System Time: 6:05 PM
.. haven't finished it yet but i gtg now.. bye!

Monday, September 16, 2002

System Time: 9:00 AM
... woke up this morning hearing the heavy rain outside.. tried to remember that i was no longer a student.. (and therefore should not expect a suspension of classes) left home at exactly 6:30 AM..(which is earlier than usual) when we got to the shuttle terminal, there was a loooong line of people waiting for the shuttle services to arrive.. when i FINALLY got inside one, traffic was soo heavy (streets were flooded) that when i looked at my watch (it said 8:15 AM) and then outside the window, i had to stop my jaw from falling 'cause we were still in cainta and nowhere near EDSA..
i swiped in at 8:46 PM :(
... i was contemplating all this bad luck (thinking "why-oh-why") when suddenly, it hit me... today is Monday.... (aaahhhhhh) now it all makes sense. MONDAYS SUCKS!

.. even forgot to bring my diskette.. good thing Koji always has one that i could borrow..
slept at around 12:15 a.m. last night... (this morning, then) exceeded my bedtime cut-off by 15 minutes.. as usual, i was making the fan site, which is slowly but surely beginning to have actual contents in it.. i've uploaded more than 10 pages (i think) which are the facts link, fiction link and the fiction's articles links.. i bought a new magazine which has James Blanco on 2 pages (yeish! lol!) and was able to watch the latter part of Kahit Kailan (i recorded it but still wasn't able to watch the parts i missed.. think my sister already rewinded the tape *aww* ) anywayz, okay lang 'cause i was making the site and was quite pleased with myself on the work i finished. lol! even brought the magazine thinking that maybe i could type the article when we've got nothing else to do (patago, of course hehe).. hay kajologans lol!
.. Koji brought his AD&D sourcebook.. i'll just start reading this.. (Last Friday, Ma'am Doc said we'll be given a new module today (yung totoo na daw, meaning pang project) but it's already 9:47 AM).. hmm.. oh btw, i already started canvassing Fairy Tale books .. it averages around 600 bucks per book.. my Dad (for the first time) didn't discourage me (and didn't tell me it was a waste of my money...like my TCG and HP collections..) and even helped me look for good ones.. i plan to start buying next payroll..

System Time: 11:44 AM
.. started typing the James Blanco articles secretly hihihih.. the mag is in my bag.. i'm just waiting for lunch time..

System Time: 1:34 PM
.. already finished creating the 3 pages for the articles I typed... i'll upload these when i get home.. hmmmm now what..

System Time: 3:14 PM
..huhuhuh.. finished reading HP book 1.. NOW WHat!?

System Time: 5:01 PM
..yes! 1 hour to go.. i've been doing some 'reported' bugs (oohh i'm working).. i think i solved some of them, though i may have used a daya-method in a few.. don't know yet if it'll be accepted..

System Time: 5:59 PM
pak my idleness.. naghanap tuloy ako ng gagawin.. and of course i did something stupid and risky.. hay.. i won't go any further baka mabuking puh.. basta.. sa akin na lang yon.. GUDBAY!

Saturday, September 14, 2002

forgot to copy this last night:

System Time: 8:38 AM
TGIF! ei it's friday the 13th... am not really the superstitious type..i walk under ladders, have broken a few mirrors, deleted chain letters (grr i hate those).. and my life is hmm.. okay. i may complain about some things, (had really bad days that i want to forget) but i don't consider them as consequences of an erroneous belief...
..i hear my batchmates (Chipper and know-it-all Froi) discussing some bug they discovered (which i haven't even started resolving yet).. don't know if i'll even work on it 'cause it's not that big an error.. my batchmates have a tendency of complicating the template and looking for problems that only the most dim-witted, idiotic software user would do... but i think it's stimulated on the fact that it's either they look for problems in their program or stare at their respective monitors for 9 hours... staring at my monitor has become my hobby now.. LOL.. i'm perfectly fine and enjoying that hobby.. :รพ (Froi's at Chipper's workstation, which is one pc away and i could hear him talking loudly to Chipper.. HELLOOO bingi buh katabi mo?) hay.. i'm bad ^_^

System Time: 5:02 PM
.. created 4 new pages for the fan site.. didn't even finish the last one.. time to go na e hehe.. Eboy's already on the MRT.. bye now!


Thursday, September 12, 2002

System Time: 9:16 AM
...demmit forgot to bring my jacket.. brrrr its freezing cold here in the office.. hay.. wala na naman akong gagawin ngayon.. actually, all i want to do is light up a cigarette and go outside to warm up.. last night my sis didn't use the PC so i was able to continue making the site a little.. but i was mostly chatting, inviting people.. there's gonna be an EB tomorrow (EB na ndi naman EB hehe) and i'm going.. i kinda miss the guys.. i think i last saw them hmm.. on ganja's birthday.. yep.. yun yung last.. ate morbi's gonna be there and i can't remember when i last saw HER.. think it was last May puh when i saw her at G4..

System Time: 9:54 AM
..still waiting for break time (6 minutes to go).. i'm so cold that it's hard to type 'cause my fingers are getting numb..
...my dad went to quiapo yesterday and bought another lot of pirated dvds (yahoo).. he bought spykids 2, the rookie, in the bedroom, empire of the sun, 40 days/40 nights.. can't remember the others.. hope i could watch them on saturday... (reason why i don't want to leave on saturdays,.. that's the only time i get to watch the videos..)

System Time: 11:24 AM
..blabbed some incoherent stories to Koji to pass time.. if i don't talk to anyone i might fall asleep again..

System Time: 5:14 PM
.. i dozed off a couple of times, created some images using Paint (only software available), made wento to Koji, dozed off a couple of times, read HP, dozed off a couple of times.. well, you get the picture.. the yosi break took away some of my sleepiness and am now reading chapter 11 of HP.. my batchmates are all busy figuring out this self-discovered bug.. am not in the mood to fix it in my program yet.. as Koji said..
Froi: (talking to me) ikaw, tapos mo nuh?
Koji: di pa nya ginagawa. malamang para may gawin sya bukas.
Me: Tama! lol!
..at least somebody understands my dilemna HeHe..

System Time: 6:03 PM
.. yeishhhhhh gtg now byee

Wednesday, September 11, 2002

System Time: 8:19 AM
... MADIRPAKIR driver! almost stole away the littlest window of opportunity for me not to be late.. made me run a freaking kilometer just to punch in before 8:05 ..(login time was 8:04.. yes!) grrrrr i'll never, ever ride in that vehicle again!.. was so freaking slowwww.. a gadamn tricycle was overtaking us for heaven's sake!

/me breathes in, breathes out

gaaaaaaaaaaH ..|..
(today ISN'T monday! this is breaking the only-mondays-suck- rule lol)

hay.. am gonna start reading book 1 of HP today (finished book 2 yesterday tsk tsk).. actually, it's not that we have nothing to do, (we were given a new activity yesterday) it's just that my brain cells don't function before 9:00 AM.. (still is 8:29 AM) wonder what i'll have to do to pass time when i finish reading book 1...hhmmm..

System Time: 10:51 AM
..we're given a completely new module to work on (we'll be creating reports) .. i'm stuck again with my codes, been staring at the monitor for 10 minutes...hmmm
..ate chary's gonna be using the PC today, so i can't work on the fansite tonight... don't have the necessary software (photoshop, dreamweaver, swish, flash) installed on my notebook.. all that is installed there is MS office.. but in the meantime.. i plan on typing the articles (on my notebook) about james blanco so that i could include them on the site (hehe).. last night, i've been customizing the forums (so that the color combi would match with the pages i already created)..plus, i've been figuring out how my site would appear through search engines.. i know it's mostly based on metatags on html, but i still can't see my site on the search results of "james blanco".. hmmm..
anywayz, still don't feel like continuing the assigned module so i guess i'll start reading book 1..

System Time: 2:28 PM
uh-oh (yep, feeling sleepy again.. i could just sit here with my eyes closed and i'll be able to fall into a heavy stupor)

System Time: 3:17 PM
Ha! i found the cure to sleepiness! just sit beside the most irritating person you could find. you'll get so irritated you'll become fully awake.
BWISET! know-it-all talagaahhhh kakaaaaaaaa

System Time: 5:35 PM
...kay tagal ng oras. bwishit. hmm.. i wanna eat but all my chocolate baon are gone..

System Time: 6:01 PM
at last! bye now!

Tuesday, September 10, 2002

click here for the site i created for fafa james hehe
System Time: 8:32 AM
... uploaded the index.htm file last night.. (or was it, this morning?) think i finished uploading it at around 12 midnight...hope to continue doing it later after i get home.. ahhgrr. just remembered, Ma'am Queenie said there'll be a staff (?) meeting at 6:30 pm.. demmit.. i'll probably only be able to leave an hour later.. gaaaaaH...just when am starting to make progress on the fan site.. they're ruining my momentum LOL..

System Time: 11:50 AM
.. finally convinced my batchmates to just order food here at the office.. (instead of going out) brought the plate my dad bought for me (hehe..) has divisions like the ones they have on prison LOL.. anywayz, gotta rouse up the workaholics

System Time: 4:57 PM
.. finished making a requirement we overlooked on the module.. (with Koji's help).. Froi's been doubly irritating today.. (AS IN!).. he is such a know-it-all.. even if we're just talking about simple things.. (i quote "HINDI ah, pwede magbrake dun, yung chassis nya blahblah")

/me makes a big W sign

...wonder what the meeting will be about.. hmm.. hope it doesn't concern us directly (and i hope it doesn't turn out to be a sermon hehe) ..still reading HP book 2 to pass the time.. i'll probably finish this tomorrow.. nothing happened after lunch, still dozed off for a few minutes.. it's beginning to become a problem for me.. trying not to sleep at work.. i've tried reading HP, eating M&Ms, listening to p3s.. still isn't working.. this only really happens when i've finished programming and got nothing else to do.. (read: when i'm not thinking) .. 6:30's so faaaaaaaaar awayyyyy .. hmm.. guess i'll just continue reading..

System Time: 6:18 PM
.. demmit.. finished the book (lol).. should have read slower.. i really did read the books in descending order.. uyy wow.. each of us gets a wendys bacon cheeseburger LOL!.. (maybe they feel guilty making us stay longer at the office).. actually, i suspected some kind of feast was going to happen because of the 1.5L cokes i saw at the pantry.. hmmm
..think i'm getting a backache.. /me strets strets..

System Time: 7:17 PM
meeting was about performance bonus ..gtg now... bye!
forgot to copy this last night:

System Time: 8:16 AM
I hate Mondays. GaaaaaH.
...think i brought enough food to feed 3 people...was able to buy my baon stuff yesterday and i think i got overexcited today and brought almost the whole lot.. maybe it's to bounce off the monday blues vibes..all my batchmates are already programming.. my VB is open but so is Book 2 of HP.. between the two, i'll choose HP any day... (especially on MONDAYS!)..
hmmm..(tries to remember what i did last weekend)..

..anshe and i met last friday on megamall.. it wasn't planned at all.. i was on my way out when i saw them, decided that i didn't really want to go home yet.. so i joined them (she was with ilo) and anshe bought a vcd player!.. (was with my officemates at megamall before that) got home at past 10 (got scolded by my father) and slept at around 1 am (watched Chocolat on hbo.. or was that last Saturday.. hmmm..) anywayz, on saturday, i just stayed at the house... after fully waking up and eating my lunch, i did the menu for the fansite and was able to finish (Hurrah!) and upload it.. showed some of my irc friends and got positive responses so far,(well, except for a few guys who got insecure of James' pretty boy face hahahah juk).. so i'll probably stick to that menu..
...yesterday was my sister's birthday (ate ging, who still happens to be in Kuala Lumpur).. she called us (so that we could greet her hehe).. i texted her and told her to be careful or she might get deported (mukha pa naman syang katulong..lol!) and made bilin to check out some prices there... told her that i miss her yelling to me, though ate chary's been compensating well.. yelling twice as much.. (:รพ)
... i guess i better start the assigned module now.. (its now quarter to 9).. hmmmm..

System Time: 1:36 PM
..finished the module.. am now going to continue reading HP book 2.. though i feel a little guilty 'cause i copied Chipper's code (how he got the unitcost).. total of 2 lines only but still.. hmm... anywayz.. at least i'm finished (Froi still isn't.. :BLEH)
... i'm feeling sleepy again.. gaaaHH told myself that i would pace the work assigned so i would always have something to do.. maybe i should read the codes slower... hmmmmm

System Time: 5:05 PM
...YEP i'm sleepy AGAIN../me concentrates @_@ maybe am not getting enough sleep (duuuH, talaga?) ...

System Time: 5:59 PM
yeish.. time to go..almost fell asleep again.. even peed with my eyes closed LOL!.. am thinking of starting a fairy-tales book collection.. la lang.. they're fun.. i still have my fairy tale book.. received it when i was in 2nd grade (i think)..was a gift from Santa.. (hehe) .. am just imagining how it would look nice if my book shelf contained a whole lot of fairy tale books.. hehe.. reckon my future kids will enjoy them, right? LOL!

gtg ..cyah!

Sunday, September 08, 2002

i don't get him.. i really don't..

ANYWAYZ...

gaaaaaahhhhh too lazy to write anything...

nite all cyah at work

Saturday, September 07, 2002

hay sucks..

di na lng nya sabihin kasi na ayaw na nya akong makausap.. tsk..

better sleep na.. nite
System Time: 8:57 AM
forgot to bring my chocolates huhuhu.. (olats demmit), though i think i'm getting a sore throat because of those sweets.. i woke up today like there was this big rock lodged in my throat.. *clears throat* e-Hem.. tsaket..

..i sort of finished the menu yesterday (for the fan site).. i'm still going to improve the pictures..i want them to be perfect and it's time for me to get rid of this pwede-na-to attitude..i really hope to upload a page this weekend.. just so i could let my friends view and criticize it..

..tsk.. i'll be able to finish reading book 3 today.. (maybe even before lunch time..) you know why this is a problem.. 'cause i'll have nothing else to do after! waaHaHa.. i still have the LOTR..but when i read it, it feels like i'm in a sedative or something 'cause i instantly feel sleepy.. lol

System Time: 10:53 AM
we're now given something new to do.. but don't think my brain cells are functioning properly yet...i think it's the weekend blues.. TGIF! i won't be rising at quarter to 6 tomorrow... *happy sigh*

System Time: 3:08 PM
..still not doing the module.. i think i've programmed in my mind that i'll start making it on monday... so actually i'm just waiting for 5 PM.. been badgering Koji with HP stories.. particularly about Time travelling.. (on book 4, they used Hermione's Time turner; and in the movie, Time Machine)..in both instances they both (in theory) weren't able to change the past..

System Time: 4:56 PM
yahoooooooooooooo! will soon logout.. thought of meeting my friends but decided not to just now.. maybe i'll be able to catch Ikaw Lang ang Mamahalin..hihihihihi... bye bye!

Thursday, September 05, 2002

System Time: 11:38 AM
..okay, okay, so i'm getting sleepy again..

turns out that we had to program a certain module again 'cause we misunderstood the requirements... (hmpft.. i asked her 3 times, still, she gave me the wrong answer) well, at least we had something to do this morning..

...ei it's Chipper (a.k.a olats) beerday today!.. hapi bertdei!.. i'm gonna waste (hehe) my money today 'cause we'll be joining Chipper in treating our officemates (sort of a tradition for new batches).. but since it's also his birthday, his contribution is twice as much as ours (:รพ) ... good thing my birthday's still on November... i'm gonna buy ice kwim (yum-yum), Froi bought kakanin stuff, Chipper the pancit and Koji the coke man (plus utensils, plates etc).. /me is excited

System Time: 2:06 PM
-_- dozed off for a while... tsk tsk

presently listening to All the Love in the World by The Corrs
...i'm not looking for someone to talk to..i've got my friends, i'm more than okay.. i've got more than a girl could wish for.. i live my dreams, but its not all the same...

/me sighs.. the song says it all...

... he still calls me, you know.. the week that we didn't talk, he was calling our house but i was always out.. i try not to think 'bout him that much... that's why i'm pouring all my idle time in the fan site.. anywayz, he usually calls me to ask for help or if he has some question (that he thinks i could answer)..which is perfectly all right, i would do the same for my friends.. (try to help them, that is).. most of the time, he doesn't let me help him directly.. like making his project, perce but just asks a bunch of questions 'bout swish, or uploading sites, etc.. and he keeps on calling me "ate" that i'm starting to think of him as my younger brother.. LOL i feel old when i'm talking to him so that's not a good thing, right?

wonder who'll make me feel young again... am not THAT old, mind you.. but you know what i mean... someone who'll make me absurdly giddy that i'll feel like i'm back in my elementary days again..

..think my sluggishness has affected my brain.. gaaaaH i still feel so sleepy -_-

System Time: 5:25 PM

/me burps out loud

SaYa! we had pancit malabon, sapin², ice cream and Coke.. i didn't even smoke after, just to celebrate the fullness of my stomach lol.. i've been basically eating all day.. Koji noticed that my hands are usually under the desk..he said : "kumakain na naman 'toh".. eating btw helps me overcome my sleepiness.. :รพ (a large dose of sugar is more effective than caffeine.. )

System Time: 6:08 PM
..watdapak am i still doing here at the office.. gtg bye!

Wednesday, September 04, 2002

System Time: 9:47 AM

woah.. can't keep my eyes open.. *_*

ei, i figured out how to do this button-fading-to-green-thingie for james' site.. (yes, feeling close).. still figuring out some functions in photoshop, though... don't know when i'll be able to finish the menu.. i'm still a novice so i'm actually studying and constructing it at the same time...

System Time: 3:34 PM
... pak pak pak i'm so sleypi.. have you noticed that i usually start my entries with i'm-so-frigging-sleepy stuff..i need to use my fingers so that i won't fall asleep...presently not doing anything work-related.. so i've been reading the HP book.. i just finished book 4 and am now reading book 3 (descending order?)..actually, what i really want to read is book 2 but still haven't download it...(i keep on forgetting) ..the movie's showing soon so i want to refresh my memory.. saw part of the trailer when we watched "signs"... (/me gets excited..hope they learned from the first movie.. and also hope daniel radcliffe (?)
polishes his acting abilities..

System Time: 5:56 PM
..yeish.. 4 minutes before logging out.. am extremely irritated at my seatmate.. mr.know-it-all.. he's even worse than my past professors.. i couldn't help but make a face after he spoke to me.. i know it's a childish thing to do but he's just so exasperating... you know the feeling when somebody gets on your nerves and just the presence of that person makes you want to scream.. well.. he's like that to me.. i even hate it when he's breathing 'cause he breathes too loudly! fuck...

better go..bye!

Tuesday, September 03, 2002

fuck. i think my internet days are over.. i think i did something wrong with my sister's company's isp.. huhuhuhu pak pak pak!
System Time: 2:03 PM
/me tries hard to @_@

we've been given a new module today (at last).. the module itself is pretty complicated, and what adds up to our confusion is the lack of proper requirements/specifications in the given example.. after a lot of questions to our supervisor, i finally finished one part of the module (form_load event).. now i'm trying to create the add event.. BUT.. i've been staring at my monitor for about 15 minutes now and felt my eyes closing... i always get sleepy when i'm stuck with my codes..i decided to start my blog than be caught sleeping (again)

System Time: 5:50 PM
..Hurrah! finished add/save module with the help of my opismeyts! am now just waiting for 6 pm.. (continued reading HP).. Koji was assigned (actually, i volunteered him hehe) to create the User Control so we'll continue the project after he finishes it.. in the meantime.. i'll continue enjoying this HP book! bye all!

Monday, September 02, 2002

System Time: 1:17 PM

...slept the day away.. (read: i'm at the office)... after almost bumping my head at the computer's casing, i was overwhelmed with relief that it was time for lunch..

as usual, mondays really suck...got in a bit of a fight with the stupid driver... pak.. he had the nerve to get angry.. paakkkk (erases it from memory) ..nothing like getting yelled at to start a monday morning...was close to tears when i punched it at 7:47 AM.. think Sir Ravi noticed but didn't comment on it (thank God)...am still not fully awake.. my batchmates kept on teasing me the whole morning.. (hoy bangag! lol).. i think the total accumulated hours of sleep for me for the whole weekend would only be about 6 hours.. but of course, no regrets.. was a lot of fun seeing my friends again..for the first time in 4(?) months, everybody was present.. as i said.."eto na ang Click Barkada!" lol.. not to mention harbie's shocking news of her engagement.. was not really expecting that sort of news.. thought it would only be something like she and Alfredo got back together.. so the whole time i was singing.."IKAKASAL KA NAAAAAAAAA" LOL!.. am so happy for her! i think we talked until 5:30 am... (ria and harbie didn't sleep at all.. )

..wasn't able to continue the fan site...(this weekend, i hope).. taped Kahit Kailan (learned my lesson hehe) so i was able to watch that.. also saw him at Mel and Jay yesterday.. woohooo fogee! haha!.. Mel Tiangco even said.. "ang cute nya" she was referring to James, of course.. my sister told me to shut up because i would scream each time the camera focused him.. hehehe.. i was just amusing myself, actually.. was waiting for his call.. it never came..

i remember what my friend, Roni told me.. she said that i was strong.. (emotionally).. i said to her that when i'm with them, it's easy to forget one's problems.. it's when you're by yourself that sucks.. when you have nothing else to do but THINK.. last night before i went to sleep, i told God that i was sorry.. i was sorry that i was sad when i shouldn't be sad.. i was sleeping on a soft bed,..hugging my favorite pillow.. loved by my wonderful family.. and still i was asking God for more... i don't want to become selfish, hogging all of the world's blessings... happiness should be distributed to everyone.. God can't pour all the happiness in just one person, right? ergo, i will try my best to find gratification in my life...and to stop whining about petty things.. Amen.

speaking of blessings.. irvie texted me and told me that my notebook's fixed.. not that there was something wrong with it.. there just wasn't any OS installed in it.. Kuya Ronald did me a favor and installed Windows in it (hurrah! tenkyukuya!) now i could do the website without fighting my sister for exclusive PC use..

/me looks at System Time.. 3:25 PM
...i'll just continue reading HP.. i'm reading book 4 and i'm already on the part of the Yule Ball.. although i've probably read HP more than 4 times.. it still entertains me..

later

System Time: 5:13 PM
..was dozing off so i decided to use my fingers again.. (to type, of course).. am now on Chapter 27..
i quote (HP):
...it is a strange thing, but when you are dreading something, and would give anything to slow down time, it has a disobliging habit of speeding up...
what i'm experiencing is the complete opposite.. lol ..but it really is true.. time behaves in the most peculiar fashion, rushing past in great dollops when you want to slow it down.. or moving in a turtle pace when you want to speed it up...

well.. still have 30 minutes to kill before logging out.. i'll just continue reading..

bye all!

Sunday, September 01, 2002

watched signs.. greatttttttt great movie! (2 thumbs up!).. it was actually about faith.. like everything happens for a reason..

...i should consider the things happening to me right now as signs..

sometimes i wonder if this blog is really helping me or is actually making me worse...

i don't know what i need.. i don't want to tell my friends 'cause there's actually nothing to tell.. i'm just creating my hell (as usual)..sometimes i just really hate myself for not learning... for not reading the signs... i knew this was going to happen sooner or later.. but still,.. i remained stubborn and optimistic.. i just refused to realize that life is one big fucking cycle... i'm so tired of this feeling.. i just want to be numb and unaffected...

this blog isn't helping

gudnite
mawnin all... my friends are here.. ria, eboy, harbie, roni..(anshe already left).. they're spending the night here.. yesterday it was my officemates who slept here.. so for 2 consecutive days i had roommates! hehehe

tinatamad akong magkwento..

bye

p.s. harbie's engaged!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHA KAKAKILIG AS IN!
was my blog last friday:

System Time: 9:22 AM
TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my ex-officemates and friends4ever (NAKS HAHA) will hopefully sleepover at our house today.. hopefully because the plan is not yet finalized.. i only called them today..actually, it was irvie who texted me and said that bevs will not go to baguio today so they'll go to our house instead.. yeHey sana matuloy!

...another good news: finished resizing james' face.. (ang fogeehh talaga) they are all now 80x80 images.. hope i finish the menu this weekend..

..ANOTHER good news.. brought a soft copy of Harry Potter books here at the office.. (cannot bear reading LOTR.. makes me even sleepier)

..ANOTHER good news.. sweldo kahapon! hehe.. la lang..

eka eka.. nagcoconference mga kabatch ko hehe.. later !

System Time: 1:53 PM
i'm so sleyyypiiii.. it's now confirmed.. bevs, eugene and irvs will be sleeping over later at our haus.. (yiPee!).. i have to buy us some food, though.. (lots and lots of food)..
..hay i could read HP the whole day but i might get caught.. so i resized my notepad and made it look like the property inspector of VB hehe.. but Sir Nathan (the one behind me) probably already knows that i'm not doing anything work related.. lol.. hay.. i mean he could have noticed that my screen hasn't changed the whole morning.. Ma'am Malou said we'll be given a new module today but it's almost 2 PM..don't think that'll happen...
i'll just continue reading my HP discreetly..

SYSTEM TIME: 4:56 PM
..4 minutes before logging out.. will go to makati and meet the guys there.. i'm still so frigging sleepy.. even HP can't make me fully awake.. i even tried going to the CR and sitting in the bowl with my eyes closed.. LOL!.. hehe.. all i have to say is.. this has been one BORING day at work.. glad this day is almost over... timezone here i come hahaha ... bye!