...my whiny self

System Time: 7:13 AM
arrggh too early for words.. so i'm simply reading other people's journals, in my cellphone! woohoo LOL! i copied their entries and pasted it in a notepad as usual, but then transferred it to my phone.. very cool!

System Time: 11:05 AM
am hungryyy but i still have to wait for some stupid LP's laptop..arrghh ang tagal. alanganing oras kasi eh, lunchtime! does he expect me to skip lunch for him? gaah

System Time: 12:56 PM
*sighs* a friend's marrying again.. and i have to wear a dress AGAIN. grrr. feels like weddings are invented to torture non-dressers like me..why can't weddings be more new yorky where everyone shows up in business suits? lol! haaaay. i'm part of the entourage to make it worse.. the veil, i think.. shit. all for the love of Roni. you owe me dude, don't get married again. lol!

System Time: 1:21 PM
sooo sleyypiii. my eyes feel so heavy. /me squints..

System Time: 2:16 PM
texted Jing and Ria (from different sets of Kada, Jing=HS, Ria=ISM) to call me up.. woke me up a little then went to the CR to wake up some more.. saket pa ng puson ko chet. first day ko eh. CHET. tsaket. :(

System Time: 3:10 PM
/me is excited. gonna check out MAC palettes later with Ate Pretz..(i'm also gonna bug her to go to Essences.. i wanna see the Origins product i saw online) also will meet Anshe to look for styles for the dress. (arrrgghh!) i mean if i'm gonna wear some long dress it might as well be something that i would like..God save me from tubes, off-shoulder and backless dresses..can i wear a jacket? LOL! hay. weddings. *sighs*

System Time: 3:13 PM
MYN!

System Time: 3:14 PM
salamat roni sa comment mo.. i'll keep your advice in mind =) i guess my actions are sort of hard to understand.. i still can't believe i did this to dex.. even if i end up getting hurt by what i've done, it's better than forever wondering what might have been.. i'll just be totally unfair to dex and i think i've hurt him enough.. already, i'm feeling the effects of breaking up with him.. little things like i now have to get used to going home alone..eating dinner by myself at our house..watching so-so movies with him but still enjoying it because of his company..all the stuff we used to do when we were together..but i HAVE to let him go.. 'cause i'm having feelings on somebody else (/me hintay ng kidlat ng tumama saken..do i believe in karma? lol) and i've got to know what THIS is. if this is gonna be real. i just have to take this chance. and i'm sorry that the only way i can do this is to hurt the person that i care most about.

i'm gonna post this blog now, while Sir J's not on his desk.. bye guys, thanks for everything.

This is our last goodbye
I hate to feel the love between us die
But it's over
Just hear this and then I'll go :
you gave me more to live for,
more than you'll ever know.

This is our last embrace,
must I dream and always see your face
Why can't we overcome this wall
Baby, maybe it is just because I didn't know you at all.

Kiss me, please,
Kiss me
But kiss me out of desire, babe, and not consolation
You know,
it makes me so angry 'cause I know that in time
I'll only make you cry, this is our last goodbye.

Did you say "no, this can't happen to me,"
and did you rush to the phone to call?
Was there a voice unkind in the back of your mind saying,
"maybe... you didn't know him at all."

Well, the bells out in the church tower chime
Burning clues into this heart of mine
Thinking so hard on her soft eyes and the memory
Of her sighs that, "it's over... it's over..."