i'm so.. NOT okay.

i'm crying over a lost blog. here i am... sitting in front of a monitor and crying over a stupid blog. who am i kidding? that blog deserved to be erased with all the bullshit it contained. it was a long blog with stuff about me moving on and what i wish for him... i'm crying because it took me so long to do it... and it's really just a bunch of lies. i thought i was okay... i thought i could handle this...

i just wanna sleep and not wake up.