i find myself reading labels now.. always checking out nutrition information. my OB says i must gain at least 1 kilo a month. which is almost impossible given my history. i weighed myself yesterday and no weight gain yet. Next week is my 2nd check up, *sighs* I was hoping I would at least gain a pound or something.
i'm extremely lazy now. i'm lazy before but now its worse. my body feels heavy (even though i haven't gained a single pound) and it worsens with my feeling of inadequacy mixed with guilt with not helping in the house. sometimes i wish pangs and i are back home in our own house.. sometimes i miss my mom and my dad and my sisters.
i've told some of my officemates here (okay, most of them). i've told vivian because i need her OB. i told lynette 'cause she already knew i was delayed for 11 days. i told malvika and javern just because i want them to know (and i can bug them about eating lunch early because of that). i told raj because we were talking about contracts and i had to tell him about my situation (about not knowing if i'll want to extend my contract on december cause i'm pregnant). i told padma just now just because i wanted to. ehehe. so far, the only ones who don't know are my manager and my boss hehe! i'll probably let them know when they talk to me about my contract.
geeeeeeeezzzzz i'm so sleepy. i sometimes take a very expensive cab ride on mornings just to get to work. it was raining AND a monday. *sings.. rainy days and mondays always get me downnn* lol. u know i sang this to Malv, she didn't know the song. haha. i guess i'm showing my age.
last weekend, i didn't do much.. just slept and watched tv. i also watched 'Knocked Up' starring Katherine Heigl (u know, Izzy from Grey's anatomy).. its very appropriate movie for me to watch.. hehe. it did make me nervous though.. thinking about delivering a baby. wahaha. and i still can't imagine my tummy getting big. i had varied reactions when i told my family i was pregnant. i first told my mom.. she was happy but was still confused cause she said "di ko alam sasabihin ko sayo". next was my ate ging and she said "wow preggy. mukha ka sigurong butete". then i asked ate ging if daddy already knew and what was his reaction. he said "ang tagal pa". l o l. anyway, that's my family. only normal reaction was from ate chary who just said congratulations. hehe.
coincidentally my mom visited us here 3 weeks ago. she didn't go because she found out, it was already planned. but it was good timing cause i got to show her my baby's first ultrasound picture:
at 7 weeks:
it's as big as a bean. i know its hard to decipher it but tsugtsug is the one in the left. but during the ultrasound,i could see something fluttering, and it turns out to be the heart! so cool. ooh. i was so nervous about the first checkup i forgot to call raymond. haha. so when i was lying down and about to be ultrasound-ed, my doctor asked "is your husband here?" i was like "oh yeah. could you please call him?" lol! good thing the doc remembered or he would've missed out in hearing/seeing our baby's heartbeat.
it was pretty amazing to see it cause up to that moment, all i had was a stick telling me i was pregnant.
i was late for 13 days and i bought a test friday night. saturday at 4:30am, i went to the toilet.. read the instructions. pee, close the test firmly and then wait for 4 minutes. 1 dot ur not pregnant, 2 dots u are. sounds simple enough. so i did just that.. peed.. closed the test.. put the test down and wait a minuuuuuuute.. there's already two dots. i thought i should wait for 4 minutes. i decided to ignore and wait for the 4 minutes. then i looked at the test. 2 dots still there. got nervous a bit (i dunno.. that was my first feeling. i got a bit scared all of a sudden) and then prayed *thank you God!* i've been wanting to get pregnant for 3 months before this. i was already counting my period (without raymond knowing hehe) and my fertile days.
after taking the test, i went back to bed and woke up pangs whispering "Daddy.. daddy" then he woke up in a start and said "talaga? positive?" and he did this Edu manzano dance while lying down. (hilarious. regret not video taping it)
i told anshe that morning and she cried more than i did. (i got teary-eyed because of her). then i called vivian and told her and asked for her OB's number and the rest, as they say, is history.
i'm on my 11th week, and yep, i'm pregnant! :D