my tito ogie, my dad's brother, died last sunday night.. we got the news a little after i posted my blog..

hay.

since then, araw araw nuh kami sa burol.. ako, after office.. kasi di naman ako maka-absent dahil 'di naman "immediate family".. pero close parin,.. hay.. wawa mga pinsan ko.. mas matanda pa nga dadi ko keh tito.. yung family ni tito yung taga Isabela.. yung farm nya ang ginawan namin ng automated system sa thesis ko.. tas halos every year.. pumupunta kaming Isabela after christmas.. hay.. last week nga lang eh kausap ni dadi si tito sa phone.. ipinagmamalaki yung mga itik na bagong bili nya hehe.. kaya magkasundo yung 2.. kasi si dadi, nag fafarm-liit na rin .. tas si tito ogie taga bigay ng advice.. pero nung tungkol sa itik baliktad naman,.. si dadi ang nagbibigay ng advice kasi sya naunang itry yun.. puro tilapia kasi tsaka manggahan meron si tito.. ayun...

grabe antok na ako.

sa sabado na libing.. hay.. yoko ng umiyak.. marami pang wento e.. as in.. meron tungkol keh tito.. merong tungkol saken...

yung tungkol saken.. errr.. pag kinuwento ko... baka patayin ako ng mga kaibigan ko.. lolz.. so akin na lng yun.. -_-

waah la wenta blog ko.. at least nagparamdam ako hehe..

ingats senyu..

i know, i know,... i haven't been blogging.. it's just that i've been busy (eh-em) with work (eh-em) and household chores.. hehehe

but i do have something new to write.. two BIG news.. one is big in the money.. the other is.. errr.. i don't even know how to start that one..

first.. meh PS2 nuhhhhh kooooooooooooo wooooohoooooooo *jumps up and down* .. can't believe my dad lent me money.. i'll be paying him back monthly.. which is sooooo cool 'cause at first, i was planning on using ate chary's cc but then the INTEREST alone would cost me 3 thou + bucks.. didn't even ask my father to pay cash.. he volunteered.. sooo happy.. was playing Minority Report yesterday till i was dizzy and my sister told me to shut the thing down.. hafto remember to bring the 3 (grr) PS2 games back 'cause they're not loading properly..

now for the other news.. hmm.. think i told this bit of news to 2 persons.. (only) .. haven't told anyone PERSONALLY cause i know i'll be PHYSICALLY assaulted (read: battered and bruised hehe).. i could hear it already.. "wahaha TANGA moooooo *wapaks ako* papaha-rass ka dunnn" LOL! okey.. so i'm not making sense.. i don't know WHERE and HOW to begin my story.. so i guess i'll just say what has been most bothering me..

our lips touched

NYEH yun lang.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. yun ngaaaaaa e. sa akin.. ala yun.. eh pag kinuwento ko.. wahahaha.. yari ako.

..think i'm having a smeagol/gollum moment here.. i'm actually contradicting myself.. tsk tsk tsk.. bad sign

hmmm.. but my friends do have a point.. SUMOBRA ata ang pag enjoy ko.. hehe.. i actually got pretty good advices from the 2 people whom i told this episode (a.k.a kalandian ko)

thoughts to ponder:
1. alam mo na ginagawa mo, geri
2. lahat ng sobra, masama.. (read: sobrang harutan bawal!)
3. everything in moderation, geri
4. di mo tuloy alam kung kikiligin ka or ma guilty ka
5. boundaries, boundaries, boundaries

hehe. and my point/s:
1. i'm not expecting anything from him
2. am just having fun :)
3. masaya, eh LOL

haha la wenta yung akin.

sige. ayan nagblog ako.

babayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy *mwah sa CHEEKs* sa inyong lahat LOL!

*still sleypi*

went to kuyuh allan's birthday celeb last night.. got home at past 2 am.. my mom waited up for me.. so i'm still feeling guilty 'bout that.. but still, no regrets.. 'cause i had fun and got to drink mah fave SMB.. hehehe..

before that, my officemates and i had to go to the world trade center to watch our company's product presentation.. aliwww.. parang field trip.. katuwa.. hahayy.. pero yoko na atang tumabi keh "ano".. kasi inaasar na ako at sows.. yoko matsismis sa meh asawa na.. mah gas LOL

AAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

just remembered the trilogy Eboy and i are reading.. madir pakir of a book.. kala ko naman liligaya ako dun eh lalo akong nadepress.. langhiya! tama bang mamatay yung lalake in the end.. buwsit. itago nyo sa bato.. yung gagawin kong libro HAPPY ENDING. lolz

did i mentioned that before? i'm writing a book.. similar to the one we're reading.. hope i actually finish THIS. i'm just soooooo good at starting things but never actually finishing them..

HAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY!

just disconnected at IRC. some days are okay.. but some days.. fuck. SANA talaga hindi ko na sya nakilala. AS IN! di ko siya maintindihan. bakit buh meh mga ganong tao? alang wenta.

nood na lng ako pirated dvd. hehe. babayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

p.s.
tribute to my IRC friends. ate charol i labyu, nardo ever generous, james, dex, mon, kyla, k8tee, mark... kayo mga rason bat bumabalik parin ako sa IRC.. mga buwsit kayo hahahaha.. juk lng.. sana lahat ng tao sa IRC tulad nyo. *tago lahat kayo sa aking bulsa* hehe.. labyu all!

haaay. TG this day is over.

thought it was going to be just another boring day... you could say that it was my fault.. me and my being lazy.. just decided that i wanted to skip work again..

woke up at the sound of my mother's voice... don't know who she's talking to.. but i think she was talking to someone on the phone..

dragged myself out of bed and went down to see her watching TV.. she didn't look like she was watching actually.. just staring to space..

hay...

she's hurt that my father didn't ask her to come with him to his errand... when she woke up my father already left..

my father kept on making ME the reason.. that I would be left all by myself.. blah blah.. hay.

spent the WHOLE day convincing my mom not to leave us. my eyes still hurt 'cause i've been crying all day.. my mom looks worse.. she hasn't even eaten.. i've tried giving her dinner.. she wouldn't open the door.. i texted her... told her to get her food.. she said she wasn't hungry.. TG for modern communication devices..

dad's already home.. told him he shouldn't talk to mom yet.. mom's too angry..

she told me how he kept on making her feel insignificant.. the my father doesn't treat her as his partner.. that he has no respect for her.. i tried to defend my father.. i tried so hard... she told me how my father was never a gentleman to her.. it hurts so much to hear her say that.. 'cause i love my father.. and i think he's the best.. he's never been unkind to me and my sisters.. he doesn't have vices like other fathers do.. she just told me some more stuff that i didn't want to hear.. i love my mother also.. unconditionally.. but i don't know what to tell my father.. HE's just like that.. its hard to change him now.. my mother said we bring the worst in her..

hay.

my blog doesn't make any sense right now.. i'm just confused.. and tired.

i'm texting my mother right now.. to think she's just in the other room..

my mom's tired also. she told me how it was hard to be alone for more than 25 years.. she didn't work so that she could take care of us.. she said that she would sometimes go on a whole week without uttering a word.. 'cause my father will be out before she wakes up.. and when dad comes home it'll be just to eat and sleep.. she has so many regrets in her life.. she told me some of them today..

i'm not a good daughter you see.. i'm not showy.. my sisters are worse.. she just wants to feel our love.. and our appreciation..

i just want to turn back the time.. i want to change.. to take back EVERY disrespectful thing i've said to her.. done to her..

but i can't do that... but i do have tomorrow.. and many other chances..