...why him?

i knew it. i knew that i would jinx michael johns by speaking about him in my blog. I'm so sorrryyyy I didn't mean to. L o L. but dammmit, i'm still pissed that he's eliminated. super pissed. I didn't have any unrealistic expectations of him winning the whole thing but I would've liked him to be at top 5 at least. (ahead of Syeisha and Kristy Lee!) arrgh. All i can do now is to say goodbye to his manliness. and his adorable aussie accent. and his voice. huhuhuh. i loooove his voice. *sighs*


photo from rickey.org
Goodbyeeeeeeeeeeee.. I really hope to see you in TV again!

*sighs* anyhoo. am still pregnant. tsugtsug is still very active. i do have a hard time finding the right position to sleep though. its like my whole tummy shifts to the left and then everything aches in my right side. i dunno what's up with that. i have stopped reading "birthing stories" and other labor stuff because it just simply terrifies me. i feel it adds to my confusion and anxiety instead of making me feel prepared and well informed. the book "What to Expect on the First Year" makes me fall asleep after just a page. and my suitcase isn't ready yet. I mean, it has stuff inside, but its not everything that i would need. am i panicking? LOL. i don't know. i'm just nervous i think. or constipated. LOL. i dunno what i'm feeling anymore, if its physical or emotional. i can't friggin differentiate.

..time for my daily siesta. i love being a bum.