i feel like shit.

so what else is new in this madir-paking-layp.

i just want to be happy. is that too much to ask? why do i keep on making the wrong decisions? why do i always make myself miserable? why do i always get involved with the wrong persons? .. he's either too far from me..too young for me.. married for pity's sake.. too insecure.. too afraid.. or am i just so priking gullible.. how can i be so naive? i'm not a kid anymore.. but i feel so childish with all my rantings and emotional distress.. isn't it my turn to be happy? when will that happen..

i'm alright... it only hurts when i breathe